ARMY Stories featuring @FictionLover2
This ARMY Story was written by Twitter user @FictionLover2. Please enjoy her story below!
I hadn't thought about how BTS has impacted me or changed me before this year, but as I tried remembering how I was before I discovered them, I realized that they really changed me a lot and for the better, in my opinion.
First of all, since I got into BTS, I have become more confident and open with my personal beliefs and opinions, openly stating them and sticking to them, no matter how provocative. I feel more assertive and freer to express myself and what I believe even in front of people, even if they are against my opinions or believe the opposite. I have become more outspoken about my beliefs and opinions because of them. I don't really know or understand how that happened, but I can be very blunt with my beliefs and opinions nowadays.
Second of all, in the past, I was feeling kind of anxious about the future, and although everyone around me was like "work hard for your dream" and "try to reach your goals," I did not have a particular dream or goal. I just wanted to live my everyday life comfortably and happily, and because of that I thought "Yes, I need a stable job to achieve that."
It was around the time I was participating in university entrance exams and I had to list the universities I was interested in. Everyone already had some particular ones in mind but I was like, "Which major would open more options for me and I could pass more easily?'' I just did not have anything I would like to pursue as a job. I did not have particular goals to achieve. I just wanted a stable salary that would help me get by so that I could live an okay-ish life happily pursuing my favourite past-times and unassuming hobbies.
And I felt bad about that, because I was a really good student and I could do more, work a little harder, and I could pass anywhere I wanted. My parents (despite our clashes and other circumstances) had worked so hard to take care of us and our needs, had provided for my education and even two foreign languages and computer classes so I could be successful later, but there I was not wanting to do anything grand or even work as hard as I could because I had no interest in any grand job that required that.
I liked English and reading books, so I put English Literature as my first choice, didn't manage to get in by a small margin, and yet I did not really feel sad or disappointed. I got into a fairly good university, studying Public Management that I had ranked 4th because with it, I could work in many different fields after graduating. And now I am studying through it not really caring about what I will do after it, just that I get a decent salary job.
But there is one thing that is different right now. I do not feel bad about it anymore. I do not feel like I am failing my parents. I do not feel like there is something wrong with me. BTS said that it's alright to not have a dream. It's alright to just get through every day happily. To live anticipating the small bits of happiness in everyday life. To not take part in the race that many other people are going through. That it's okay to not want anything grand. That it's okay to think and feel the way I do. And I really appreciate that. I just feel like a weight had been lifted off of me. And I feel lighter every day!!!! And I love them all the more for that!!!!
They've really brightened up my days!!! They actually have helped me a lot with de-stressing. Watching their content can make me smile and laugh and feel so very warm whenever I need it. Their content can keep me engaged and interested and help relieve my boredom and even research things I would never have otherwise gone for. They have such a diverse discography, and I can listen to many different songs from them depending on my mood. They can make me so excited and anticipate what they'll do next and how they'll do. Their words also inspire me a lot.
Last but not least, I have learnt so many things while following BTS about so many diverse topics like symbolism, cultures, the Korean language, age dynamics, history, how the industry works in many countries, and technical aspects of music (producing, performing, organizing). I really have learned so much and have become very invested, and I love that!
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